Tonight I Fear Not


I witness thoughts & words born of brilliance
We listen as creation falls still born from a mouth loved
Tell me do those ears hear a soul wailing
Music…between the lines…lyrics begging for breath
Play now with an open heart that is unafraid and untethered
Bury the past and sing its dirge to the nights silent wake

Author: Carrie Lewis
Date: October 2, 2014 @ 3:32 a.m.

Note: I was thinking how fear keeps creation from happening. Fear I have held onto stupidly within myself and fear I see in others.

Breaking free and just being is what I am working on, and happiness will be mine because I tried! I stopped singing for a long time a couple times in my life. I realized tonight those were the times when I would feel suicidal, empty, alone. Once I opened up again and forgot the fear that someone I loved would not like my singing…I WAS ALIVE AGAIN!

They say life is a work in progress. Hey man I’m working on it. 😉


Thinking about Christmas.

I realize I am going to have a lot of time to sit and ponder life during this time of year. Everyone else goes off to see family. Luckily me and my mom are planning to get together, maybe I will end up cooking something really rad. Just waiting to hear back from them on when they will come down exactly…and then I get to plan on what to cook.

Other than that my Christmas is going to be very chill and laid back, I think I need that right now. A time to just sit back and think about everything that is going on in my life and come up with a solid plan on how to attack and solve the problems I have currently; from my career goals to my house and other things going on in my head. Why am I going to have all this time? My best friend and roomie is going to his mom’s for Christmas and I am going to have the house to myself for a couple of days. KEGER TIME! lol Just kidding. Sometimes it’s just good to have time to one self. Though I know I am going to miss having someone around the house to bug, it will be cool.

Now to try to get other people to come by so I can cook for them. It’s been my goal to try to get friends over and stuff, but it has yet to happen. With the holidays and regular busy schedules everyone seems to be having right now…I can’t get my homies to come by and be my food tasting guinea pigs. Hmmmm I wonder what they are really thinking? Anyway off I go to try and clean up the house a little more. WOOO Fun Monday.