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Thinking about Christmas.

I realize I am going to have a lot of time to sit and ponder life during this time of year. Everyone else goes off to see family. Luckily me and my mom are planning to get together, maybe I will end up cooking something really rad. Just waiting to hear back from them on when they will come down exactly…and then I get to plan on what to cook.

Other than that my Christmas is going to be very chill and laid back, I think I need that right now. A time to just sit back and think about everything that is going on in my life and come up with a solid plan on how to attack and solve the problems I have currently; from my career goals to my house and other things going on in my head. Why am I going to have all this time? My best friend and roomie is going to his mom’s for Christmas and I am going to have the house to myself for a couple of days. KEGER TIME! lol Just kidding. Sometimes it’s just good to have time to one self. Though I know I am going to miss having someone around the house to bug, it will be cool.

Now to try to get other people to come by so I can cook for them. It’s been my goal to try to get friends over and stuff, but it has yet to happen. With the holidays and regular busy schedules everyone seems to be having right now…I can’t get my homies to come by and be my food tasting guinea pigs. Hmmmm I wonder what they are really thinking? Anyway off I go to try and clean up the house a little more. WOOO Fun Monday.

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Deviant Internet wanderings…

It all started tonight with a few links my friend sent me in IM’s over Google Talk (don’t mind the ped egg banter):

12:24 AM Chris: DOMINATE!!!
http://immanuel.deviantart.com/art/Mother-94776951
12:28 AM Chris: you should be jealous.

me: interesting
Chris: I got a ped egg
Yeah, I liked that image.

me: I hates you!
lol so do you like your ped egg?
12:29 AM Chris: it makes my feet raw
my feet are smooth, though
Chris: I leave you with this. http://immanuel.deviantart.com/art/Knight-of-the-Invisible-Empire-94779350

So while I was chatting with Chris I ran into this lovely shot. Now to some of you guys it might look “strange” but I think it’s freaking beautiful in an odd way. Maybe it’s the shape of the eye’s with the makeup, and how the dress fits on her body…and the mess. It’s interestingly beautiful. Check it out:

Click on it to see the actual picture. 😛

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Moving & Updating sites…

I swear my ass is getting smaller and smaller the longer I sit here and move all these websites. But the fun part is rawkin’ out to songs and when stuff doesn’t work right i just start screaming lyrics. I am sure the neighbors are loving it.

Some of you might be wondering why I have a wordpress.com account also among all the other websites I have, run and own? For now I think wordpress.com is at least more stable then the shitty webhost I had before. JustHost.com *cough*Cheap bastids!*cough* Anyway I will get into that later. So tonight and the rest of the weekend I am going to try to move one website a day or so. *sighs* This is FUN! And my ass is shrinking….AHHHHH!

HEH! The song for tonight is…

I love this song. 😛 I’ll write more later I think. LOL

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Crazy

I want to sing this song to each and every one of you, then perhaps you would understand me. Perhaps you would know why you might hear me cry on the phone when I call. Or when you hear me sighing in the middle of the night. I admit I am a tad bit batty at times…and this song I would sing to you all. On my knee’s face raised to the moon and my voice echoing off unknowing faces of stone. All I feel is the cold of your glare, from eyes that once upon a time I had seen a fire…life, a spark even. So I would sing, oh gods would I sing to break that spell life has hold on you my friends. All of you.

I am not sititng here preaching to you all to have a group hug or anything. I am just tired, so fucking tired of a lot of things. And I WANT TO SING! I WANT TO FEEL! But I don’t want to do it alone. But I feel crazy and restless…who would want to sing with me and dance in this cold faint lighted moon mood…who would open their arms to everything and stand by me? Who would be crazy enought do that?

Ah well this is the song that got me in this frame of mind….

Crazy

Not sayin’
Not charmed at all
Not sayin’
that you weren’t worth
the fall
But I was alone when
I knew it was real
Down the canyon
when I knew I had come

To the line
Through the dawn
To the light
To the turn
When you said —

You could drive all night
Drive all night

So I let Crazy
take a spin
Then I let Crazy
settle in
Kicked off my shoes
Shut reason out
He said “first let’s just
unzip your religion down”

Found that I
I craved at all
Saw me melt
into your
native shelter
Where you carved my name
Paper tigers scare
and came

Alive
Through the dawn
To the light
To the turn
When you said —

You could drive
all night
Drive all night

So I let Crazy

take a spin
Then I let Crazy
settle in
Kicked off my shoes
Shut reason out
He said “first let’s just
unzip your religion down”
So I let Crazy

pull me in
Then I let Crazy
take his spin
Kicked off my shoes
Shut reason out
He said “first let’s just unzip your religion down”
Heard that you were once
Temptation’s Girl”

And as soon
as you have
rearranged the mess
in your head
He will show up looking
sane
perfectly sane
If I know Crazy


I know I have probably posted this song plenty of times in this blog or one of my damn blogs here on MyCrack errr I mean MySpace. I just love this song. It explains a lot about my heart I guess you could say…perhaps even my soul. My wandering lost soul….Crazy.

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Bleepage! OMG!

Tonight I have been wandering around wordpress.com checking out people’s blogs and just staying up for no apparent reason. I could be cuddled up in bed with all my millions of blankets and pillows snoring like a mad beasty! But nooooo

So I sat here and read this and read that, when the roomie o doom (aka best friend Nate) comes out laughing like a loon! And I sit and wonder…do I really want to ask him why he is laughing, and if so am I prepared for what my ears might hear? So I grow some “woman balls” as I like to call them and ask…what happened?

Turns out Cyanide Vogue got played on a radio show called LA Talk Radio. Anyway during the song Nate’s vocals get “bleeped” and you hear a weird kind of skip/mute sound. It’s rather funny to me. So I thought I would post it here.

Anyway, check out Cyanide Vogue!